What is this? This is very unusual for me to be down for so long. I tanked my first take at teaching a pose in class yesterday, and my morale is a bit down, but I know that it’s stupid to be affected by something so minor. I was the one who decided to throw myself under the bus because I wanted the experience and feedback, because I’ve never taught any sort of physical workout before. It’s very different from sitting in front of the computer and generating lines and lines of instruction like I do at work. I admit that I did not practice my lines, given the madness of the weeks leading up to yesterday, plus I tried to be radical (maybe too creative??) with my instruction by asking the students to stand in Tadasana and lunge back and pivot the heel down to get into Warrior II. See how easy it is for me to just write the “keywords” of the instruction out here, but when I was up there, I was lost for words.

I told myself that I would accept everything, good and bad with open heart. Although, I should have known that I was emotionally fragile yesterday because I was tempted to just lie in a coccoon in the bed and skip class yesterday due of being depressed and stressed.

Anyway, it’s already Monday and I don’t know what’s bugging me. I am still trying to feel positive about yesterday’s failure. Right now I am feeling a little regretful about being a teacher because, I totally suck at it. I should just stick to writing stuff online.